There are some people who have such a deep desire to have kids, and i guess i’ve never really known that. My husband and I have always just flown by the seed of our pants. (Thank God) With this appointment i realized something, i don’t know that i ever “wanted” to have kids. I had an appointment with my therapist the next week March 6th. and i was alone, which was the hardest part. & there it was a lemon sized clot, and i knew. I went to the bathroom to change my pad & dispose of the old one. We were on the phone when all of the sudden, i felt something come out of me, and instantly, i knew. Two days later, my husband had to return to work, i was home alone.(luckily my work provided paid bereavement). seeing all the tissue pass was nerve racking, asking myself “was this the baby?” the idea that there are likely women who have to take this medication alone makes me want to cry. i felt like i was just trying to survive the day. I started bleeding so badly, i was running a low grade fever, i had the worst cramps imaginable(ones my heating pad couldn’t touch). If i could go back i would opt for the D&C, and i’m terrified of surgery. I would have much rather waited to try and pass naturally, but i was due to get married March 11th & was so scared this would stain what’s supposed to be the happiest day of my life.įebruary 28th, my (now) husband had the day off, so i decided to insert the miso that day. I asked the doctor to send the prescription of misoprostol to the pharmacy, and if i hadn’t passed over the weekend, i was going to take it that next week. I had to make the decision to wait & see if it passed naturally or intervene medically. After the ultrasound, the doctor confirmed this was a “missed miscarriage”. but i knew, it was easier for me to take it as a loss.įast forward again, 2 weeks later. We scheduled another appointment for 2 weeks to determine if this was a miscarriage or something else. I was supposed to be 10 weeks, however, i was only measuring at 6w1d. After the ultrasound we get into the room with the doctor, and she starts to ask if i’m sure about my dates of last period(positive of them, since i track my cycles). Now i realize, that was probably when the baby stopped developing.įast forward to the first doctor appointment on February 9th. Except my nausea had went away(at the time i didn’t think anything of it). ![]() Everything seemed fine, i had all the pregnancy symptoms. It took us awhile to get into our first appointment. ![]() My husband & I found out i was pregnant on January 4th.
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